I'm a still-in-the-closet 33 y/o beta; I lived with my single-mother from birth to 5, when she remarried. With a little brother on the way, I was raised on the farm and ranch by a dying breed of old-fashioned cowboy, a vestige of a generation thought long gone. I was shy and insecure, if not a little effeminate and always felt more comfortable, more myself, in the company of females. With boys I struggled to fit in, always feeling I have to mask myself in order to gain acceptance (and still to this day). Thanks to the vast knowledge, curiosity, and endless cruelty of a few delinquent boys (involved with drugs/alcohol, theft, shitty music, etc) I was 'friends' with, I came to be enlightened on penis sizes after a friend saw me peeing in the woods outside his house. He immediately ridiculed and mocked me, forever altering their collective behavior in my presence. Fate, having a pension for irony it seems, led me to discover panties (in the form of a little black thong of my mothers) at 11. Of course I was immediately hooked: I loved how they felt against my skin, how they looked and how they made me FEEL. So I began to wear panties often and soon found myself trying on bras and wearing them both to school, around the farm and at home. But at 16, a girl began expressing interest, so I chose to fight my urges.... to be a man. We dated for two years before, in my own infinite wisdom, I cheated on her. After high school I met a girl whom I'd always wanted: a slut. After we were together for a year and a half, we got married (I was 21, she was 19) and even produced offspring, but I soon found myself filing for divorce after she cheated on me (which should have been my first hint..a cuckold before I even knew the term) on New Years Eve 2005. Since then, I have felt the emotional devastation of both doing the cheating (03, 06) and of being cheated on (04, 05, 06, 10); I have come to understand the extent of my physical inadequacies and wish for my partner's (whoever that may be, should the time come again) desires be fulfilled in every way.... I now find being 'cheated on' to be an arousing activity; who would have guessed that acts of infidelity would create in me the desire to fulfill my partner in every way possible and using whatever means necessary, would lead me to discover cuckolding & sissification/feminization in 2012. Five years later, I keep my tiny penis in panties, a bra over my chest and, when home, only wear feminine clothing (eg. jeans, tanks, yoga pants, mini dresses/skirts, heels, etc). I also shave my entire body (from the face down) on a weekly basis and always keep my toe nails painted. I have owned a few chastity cages since 2012, each having been discarded or stolen (awkward for sure) and came to realize that I enjoyed being caged (for the naughty feelings), but there was no real rea other than that. After my silicone cage was stolen, I decided not to purchase another, opting to instead tuck my tiny lil' clitty in a tight, sexy thong full time. That was in July 2015.

My Ideal Person Cute, kind and accepting.

What are your favorite musicians or bands?:
Beatles, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Dave Matthews, Pepper,

What location do you fantasize about for a sexual encounter?:
A bed

What types of sexual activities turn you on?:
Giving Oral Sex

What factors are most important to you when looking for a sexual partner?:
Sexual experience

Have you ever had cybersex?:
I've tried it, but it's just not the same.

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